In January 2017, we found out we were expecting. I was angry with God that he would allow me to be pregnant. It wasn’t my plan. To be honest I didn’t know what the next few days held for my marriage.
The first couple trimesters were really hard.
One evening in the middle of a fight with my husband, God gave me a vision that the baby I was carrying was a little boy we would name Daniel. I was only about 8 weeks pregnant at this time. Six weeks later it was confirmed that it was a boy (because yes, I didn’t fully trust that God gave me a vision and had to get it confirmed with an ultrasound).
God gave me peace and comfort for the remainder of my pregnancy. I accepted that this was part of God’s plan and although it didn’t make since to me, I trusted him.
September 26, 2018 Daniel Thomas was born.
And here I am writing about him because my baby will be ONE in less than two weeks and I can’t even!
I can’t believe that it’s been a year! To say it has flown by is an understatement. I just don’t understand how time can go so fast.
I’ve seen advice about how to “slow time down”.
And the most consistent advice was to:
Be present, be thankful, say “yes” more, and put down your phone.
I feel like I have been intentional in really soaking in all the baby things and appreciating where I am.
And.. I think it has gone by even faster.
I’m sad to know that my last baby is no longer a baby but growing into a toddler.
I have enjoyed every stage this little boy has been in and how much I have grown being his mama.
He has brought so much joy to our family.
The last 18 months I have seen God work! I’ve seen God work in ways that I would consider a miracle, because if it weren’t for God working in my heart, my marriage, my family, we wouldn’t be where we are today.
God continues to prove his goodness to me. Even when my circumstances make me question God’s goodness, I’m learning that regardless of how I feel or what I think, who he is doesn’t change.
He is good.
He brings beauty from ashes.
He restores the broken hearted.
He is faithful.
He is loving.
He is merciful.